You've heard the song. Well i have too and the Money, Cars, and Clothes... i suppose i want them too. but not the same song eveyone else sings. a life oppisite of poverty. i dont need the "material" things. Pressured by the mistakes made my the ones before me, i pray for guidance hoping the lord wont ignore me. visions of what the future holds in each hand for me. if ever exhausted from life i pray the lord restore me. what ever hand life hands me hoping to play it witfully. i cant lose because i cant afford to. failures not an option when success is unfimiliar to the ones before you. you presented with the option to break the cycle or let it continue. do things differently and never let your family go thru what you went thru. afford a better life for your wife. a better one than you had. be a good husband and dad. common burdens that rest on the mind of a young man, learn from their mistakes provide a better life if you can. never allow yourself to be told you cant or you wont. because your family will fail if you dont. burdens that burn in my brain at night when i lay, so i make descisions that effect my life tomorrow and not just today. i wanna be a success. be the reason my family never suffers. i wanna be the reason my kids say they had a good father and mother. so when life is hard and i feel i cant go any longer. the broad future i seek is what makes me stronger.
As thoughts accumalate in my head and shit builds on my chest. i think to myself "I gotta push it off and lay my thoughts to rest" kill em before they become actions, and i find myself doing things that dont add up like fractions, strife is always present but joy is present in fragments, its a task in this world to keep ur head amisdt of all the madness. soberiety is a bitch and so is the life i live, when you've given everything you have what else is there to give? left with nothing in my grasp, all i know is to take, the happiness in my life i seek and the emotions i need to shake, u can always hear the rip when ur heartbreaks, but only few know the courage that love takes, especially when its easier to hate, but loving is such a hard task, instead of try id rather drown my problems in a flask, so i can slow my roll, because i hate living fast, a life i dont want to last, afraid of re-visiting the past, so i pray that the lord hears my prayers and grants me the peace that i ask..
I'm so gone like Cudi or Drake. do you hear yourself wit the accusations you make? I'm tryna make a better future for us, but it seems like lately all we do is fuss, i tell my boys but they ain't no help they telling me i should leave you on the shelf, but wit you i wanna share success and wealth and besides leaving you is bad for my health. i tell em I'm too deep, its too late to turn back now, my fellas asking hold on how? say hold on now, but its too late to turn back now, or try to move in a different direction, now a days decisions i make are harder than erections, I'm trying real hard to stay in this relationship, its like our chances are 50/50, so let the coin flip. and when it hits the floor, lets hope it lands on us, because the other side, will be the end of us. saying goodbye to you is something i cant do, so any problems that we have i wanna work thru, i wanna make you smile, when your feeling blue,and rest my hand on your thigh while laying next to you, and my fellas saying focus on these Otha hoes, they say i need to have fun and live by P.O.L.O (Players Only Live Once), but if players only live once then i must live twice, I'm not a player I'm the type that wants to take a wife. so c'mon babi lets love free and forget the strife, I wanna love you till the end i need you in my life.